I_A|P|O|L|O|G|I|Z|E

Hey Guys so firstly I'm sooooopah sorry for this ridiculously late post- exams just started on the 16 November and it's tiresome and before then I was being a lazy lethargic writer and I apologize (which is also the name of the on the spot poem I am going to write) so I've got some epic news, 1- Mah room is finished and I've been in it since Thursday, November 18th and I'm all in mah comfort zone now and settled in. 2- I DESIGNED A BOOK COVER FOR MAH STORY! I took the pic mahself, cause there was no pic on the internet that really grasped meh so I decided to take one mahself.--->(pic of post) 3- MAH STORY IS ON WATTPAD! If yuh guys wanna read it or vote for it or fan meh on Wattpad simply go to www.wattpad.com and in the search box,which is in the top right corner of the home page, type "2668684" which is the code for mah story and it shall appear called "Alone In The Dark" & mah username is "GrimmAliien"... so check it out if you're interested. (one small thing you have to sign up on Wattpad and be logged in to read mah story--> no idea why-_-')4- Next month the finalists of the Sanlam Prize For Youth Literature competition are going to be announced and the winner next year so all fingers crossed that mah story becomes a finalist *__* that'd be epic:D anyhoo here's the poem...
I_A|P|O|L|O|G|I|Z|E
I apologize for any cracks in my smile;
All other attempts are futile.
I apologize for my faint heart;
Others have come and ripped it apart.
I apologize for my sparkless eyes;
For they have seen countless lies.
I apologize for my imperfect soul;
For it's tender, the scar of the eternal hole.
I apologize for my bruised mind;
For by the darkness it was made blind.
I apologize for my lack of effort;
For it is hidden beneath my hurt
I apologize for not being me;
For I've forgotten how to be...
For if the real me dies;
I apologize.
-Saara

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|The|Devil's|Seeds|

Hey Guys, sorry for this really delayed post, was busy organising for my school 11th grade camp and therefore I could not post this poem last week as promised (on the facebook page here also follow the blog updates on posts on twitter here) And I feel terrible for posting so painstakingly late... But anyway, I wrote this poem for my school magazine and it's about all the lost souls out there that are enveloped in shadows of darkness and who are truly sold to the devil... Hope you like it...:)
The Devil's Seeds

Many in the past came;
One by one to dance upon the flames.
Sold their souls to the devil of power;
And their consciences were devoured.
Drenched their hearts in black greed;
And from the flames did they feed.
Carrying out each dark deed;
Each one- a devil's seed.
Planted into their brains;
To be quenched by the flames.
Wading through the fields of sin;
As the evil slowly creeps in.
Their eyes filled with spite;
As the devil wins the fight.
-Saara

Wish Upon A Galaxy

Hey guys, thought I'd write another spotlight poem and I hope yuh like it:)... If you like my poems, then be sure to check out/ like the facebook page: JarOfWhispers

Wish Upon A Galaxy

Dig beneath the surface and you shall see;
Every puzzle piece that builds up me.
Crack open the shell of my mind;
And hatch the thoughts balanced on a broken line.

Pull the thread from my unspoken words;
Let them fly as free as all birds.
Untie the knot within my soul;
So that all of my problems can free flow.

Bury the ditch inside of my heart;
That poured out the lies straight from the start.
Stitch up the wounds in my thoughts;
Stitch them up with exes and naughts.

Unclench the fist of swallowed emotions;
Loosen the clog with glitter potions.
Untangle the future from the past;
As for the present, make it last.

-Saara Mowlana

SPOTLIGHT

Hello Poeteers!:)Thought I'd deliver on my promise (on the facebook page) to write a new poem and it shall be a spotlight poem for yuh (That's me just rhyming on the spot as I type- so bear with me) And since I love writing spotlight poems I've decided to name this poem spotlight :O shocking right? -.- haha :) anyway hope yuh dig it! :D (check out the fanpage for JarOfWhispers:D)

S|p|O|t|L|i|G|h|T

Eradicate my heart;
Evaporate my soul.
Grab at the reins of my conscience;
And take over control.

Blind me with your spotlight of ridicule;
Cover me in your cloak of insignificance.
Bury me beneath the soils of turmoil;
And do your victory dance.

Burn me with your spotlight of shame;
Carve your crop cirles into my mind.
You're the alien that invades me;
With your spotlight that made me blind.

Pluck each hope from my dreams;
Pour acid onto my heart.
Rewire my brain;
To play this deranged part.

If I put you in the spotlight;
Bare, exposing your true form.
The alien that you are on the inside;
But unto the everyone that shall be the norm...

-Saara

Mr. Apathetic

Hey Guys its been forever since mah last post and I felt bad for being so negligible and I decided to put a new fresh poem up. Ramadaan Kareem to all mah fellow muslims out there:) (to find out about Ramadaan click here ) sorry about my rather late wish but I haven't been on in a while. Anyway back to the poem, and I hope yuh dig it:)

Mr. Apathetic

The pangs of emptiness pound against my rib cage;
Screaming the unsaid words onto that torn out page.
Words shot at me- bullets of rage;
Until the curtain call of life's final stage.

Scrape up every last bit of courage;
Inside of my heart I do rummage.
But you packed up all of the sunshine and rainbows in your luggage;
Carrying around your stolen glitter baggage.

Pouring your poison all over my heart;
Rewinding my pain to the very start.
Taking my emotions and ripping them apart;
Drenching love in grey and calling it your art.

Twisting smiles into frowns of despair;
Shredding hopes without a care.
Eating hearts when we don't have a spare;
Vacuuming love and you never bother to share.

-SAARA

Keep_Smiling

Hey Guys(: So I wanted to update mah blog with a new spotlight poem(: Forgive me if mah spotlight poems are not the best, considering I make it up as I go along with it on the spot(: Hope yuh dig it:)
Keep_Smiling
I dance around with my head in the clouds;
I stay up there to avoid the crowds.
Through all of the spite filled deceit;
I manage to land steady on my feet.
Although people keep conspiring;
I shall always keep smiling.
I'll keep my head up against the irresistible frown;
I'll stand tall when people try to bring me down.
I'll glue my heart down to my hopes;
I'll pull tight my dreams by their ropes.
I'll shower my soul in determination;
I'll power my conscience with inspiration.
I'll fly down my glitter path;
Assemble my troops of anti-wrath.
I'll conquer each goal of mine;
And I'll sew up my tampered mind.
I'll blow some luck over each soul dying;
And I will always keep smiling.
-Saara

Fit_The_Mold

Hey so I wanted to write another poem today, but it's a spotlight one and I hope y'all like it:)

Fit_The_Mold
Was I what you wanted;
Was I what you hoped for.
Or am I a disappointment;
Just another thing to ignore.
I try to conform;
To become what you so desire.
I try to change myself;
To throw the old me in the fire.
I'll try to bend who I am;
To fit the mold.
The mold you created;
But how? I was never told.
I'll twist my mind;
Shape it to fit your thoughts.
I'll reconstruct my heart;
To succumb at your retorts.
I'll melt away my emotions;
My feelings, I shall fold.
I'll reset myself;
To fit the mold.
-Saara

P_U_P_P_E_T_E_E_R

Hey Guys, I wrote this poem at school when I was supposed to be doing Arabic (But it was on work I knew so its ok ^_^) I hope yuh like it:)

P_U_P_P_E_T_E_E_R
In the shadow of despair;
You'll find my heart lying there.
With its broken stuttered beat;
Searching for a retreat.
And in the whispers of hate;
My soul starts to dissipate.
My conscience is erased;
And my mind gets all dazed.
I'm your sacrificial lamb;
And you create your scam.
Watch me disintegrate;
And burn in your hate.
You're the evil puppeteer;
Watch me fall and writhe in fear.
When I rise, you pull the string;
And watch a new fall begin.
-Saara

The_Lyrics_Of_My_Soul

Hey guys, I have fallen in love with the song Monster by Paramore, the lyrics are phenomenal and the tune is catchy I LOVE IT!! Anyway since I was in the word game mode (kinda) I decided to write a poem. Hope yuh dig it (out its grave?) (What does "dig" it actually mean?) :)

The_Lyrics_Of_My_Soul
Songs written with their heads in the gutter;
Sex and drugs are their bread and butter.
Love songs written based on human aesthetics;
Other than raw emotion or classic romantics.
Boasting their earnings through rhymes;
With a backtrack of a tune that is sublime.
It infects the masses' brains;
Drags them down to the drains.
Polluting their thought;
With each new track bought.
Spurring them onto drugs;
Turning them into thugs.
Enticing their sexual hunger;
Turning them into an unstoppable monster.
Songs written with their heads in the dustbin;
Raw emotion lost in the shadow of sin.
-Saara

My_Prerogative

Hey guys thought about an idea for another poem and I am going to make one up based on that idea right now... I hope yuh like it.:)
My_Prerogative
I am in control of my fears;
In control of my tears.
I'm in control of my voice;
I can make my own choice.
Say all you want to about me;
I still rise above harm-free.
Try to break me down;
I don't even bother to frown.
Go ahead and be negative;
How I live is my prerogative.
I steer clear from wrong;
Through my falls I stay strong.
Point a finger at me and four point back at you;
So think more carefully about what you say or do.
Hypocrisy is a disorder;
So please don't cross that border.
I don't worry about how you live;
Because that's your prerogative.
-Saara

M|E|D|I|O|C|R|I|T|Y

Hey guys, just updating with yet another spotlight poem, hope yuh dig it :)

M|E|D|I|O|C|R|I|T|Y
Thought I was good enough;
Thought I could stay tough.
Thought I had what it takes;
To go full speed and forget the brakes.
The only obstruction on my sparkled road;
Was you and your destruct mode.
It burnt out the rubber of my dreams;
Ripped apart my hopes by the seams.
Made me settle for mediocrity;
And filled me with insecurity.
Stuck a bullet in my wishes;
Bombed up my inhibitions.
Broke and belittled my heart;
Took my soul and threw it with a dart.
Flushed all that I aspired to be;
And left me with mediocrity.
-Saara Mowlana

D_E_L_U_S_I_O_N_S

Hey guys, so I am enjoying writing spotlight poems and I've decided to do another :D hope yuh dig it:)

D_E_L_U_S_I_O_N_S
Cut me open and I pour Glitter;
Make me cry, instead I titter.
Break me down, I grow stronger;
Say you're right, you couldn't be wronger.
Shred my dreams, I dream on;
Eat my heart, I keep a spare one.
Tear my soul and wishes sew it back;
Mess with my mind and it shall stay off track.
Juggle my emotions, it will float away;
Corrupt my faith, it will never stray.
Chew my aspirations and it shall go bitter;
Cut me open and I pour Glitter.
-Saara Mowlana

S|T|A|T|E_of_W|O|N|D|E|R|M|E|N|T

Hey guys :) So another "spotlight" (on the spot) poem I am going to write right..now... after I finish this little introduction:) And I hope yuh dig/ like it! :)

S|T|A|T|E_of_W|O|N|D|E|R|M|E|N|T
I gave you my heart gift wrapped in my soul;
And you plunged a stake in it, leaving a gaping hole.
My emotions run all out, leaving my heart dry;
I gave up on my own judgment and on yours I would never pry.
I run dry of all love and trust;
They dissipate to ash-like dust.
With my heart and soul carved out;
There is no use to scream or shout.
The hollow space fills with disappointment;
As I sit in a state of wonderment.
Where my mind sails the ocean of my empty hopes;
And I the puppet, controlled by the waves ropes.
I don't fight against it I just surrender;
It's better than living in reality surrounded by fibbers.
I don't want to leave my wonderment state;
To sink in all of the hurt- my dreaded fate.
So I shall build my castle of dreams;
With free flowing streams.
I shall be in control of my own judgment;
In my state of wonderment.
-Saara

K_A_R_M_A

Hey there 'peeps' (okay that was random)(--.)--> Hey guys, so I just wrote a poem and I want to upload it, so I'm gonna B-)[(--.) haha okay, more random], and I hope yuh like it :)

K|A|R|M|A
If I could control my sands of time;
I would never have crossed that line.
From who I was to who I've become;
Tripping over my trail of mistakes' crumbs.
It's true what they say about Karma;
It comes back around and causes worse drama.
Remorse plays it's role as well;
Killing you from the inside, causing you hell.
Karma eating me out from my conscience to my mind;
Remorse burning my heart that was often unkind.
That heart of stone melted out through my eyes;
Tears of remorse burning with my cries.
If I could control my sands of time;
I would never have crossed that line.
-Saara

Christina_Grimmie_and_Demi_Lovato

Hey guys, so I have decided to write another on the spot poem inspired by mah 2 favourite singers and I hope yuh dig it :)

A|S|P|I|R|E_T|O_I|N|S|P|I|R|E
Reaching for the stars without looking back;
Hearts running on hope always stays on track.
Faith sparkling in their eyes;
Keeps them flying above the skies.
Picking up the chips as they fall;
Always standing tall.
Positivity dancing in their souls;
Always rising from life's dusty holes.
With minds that shove out negativity;
That saves them from insecurity.
Keeping their heads high when they reach a down;
Always wearing a smile when they feel like a frown.
Gaining strength from their enervations;
This is why they're my inspirations.
-Saara

Update

So I just recently mailed my manuscript for my COMPLETED story (Alone In The Dark), on the 30th June, off for the Sanlam Prize for Youth Literature 2011 and I am waiting with a lot of angst for the announcement of the finalists, which will only be announced by the end of this year. In other news today Demi Lovato released her smashing single, Skyscraper, on iTunes and I simply love it, great sound and deep lyrics= EPIC, so check it out/ buy it- go crazy. Anyway I thought I'd write another on the spot poem just for yuh guys:) and I hope yuh dig it!

Lost In Transmission
Staring into the blackness of my mind;
Lying my fears aside where I can't find.
Trying to search for any sign of hope;
Till I can no longer cope.
Smiling at all that breaks me down;
Laughing at all my wasted frowns.
Facing everything I left behind;
All of the things I lost in time.
I lose myself in transmission;
Trying to complete this vision.
Of inner peace and contentment;
And break away from self-resentment.
I lost all connection now;
From who I've been and I vow.
To never be again;
Drowning in my own pain.
I will stand tall against my falls;
And be brave when I hit fail's walls.
-Saara Mowlana

This_Thing_Called_Vengeance

Hey Poeteers :) Thought I'd make up a poem on the spot for the heck of it:), hope yuh dig it:)

This_Thing_Called_Vengence

I played along for a while;
Until I had forgotten how to smile.
I realised I was hollow;
My heart had been swallowed.
My emotions were put to sleep;
All that I felt was scripted defeat.
Faux love, faux desire;
Yet you washed away the sparks before there was fire.
You put me in a state of mind;
Where only you acted so kind.
Decieved my naive soul, took it as your fool;
Drowned me in my own ignorance pool.
Built up your empire of pretence;
Behind the mountain of lies hid my beaten conscience.
Honesty was a foreign language to you;
Nothing but facades, nothing was true.
I dug up my dignity and stole back my heart;
Left my ignorance behind, that blinded me in the start.
Carved out your black, ice heart and left a joker card;
That's all that you ever were in that ice heart.
A joker who found lying as your sadistic game;
Never bothered to feel any shame.
So while you epitomise pretence;
I shall play my game, This Thing Called Vengeance!

-Saara

M_A_G_N_I_F_Y_I_N_G__G_L_A_S_S

Hey fellow poet lovers <3 Thought I'd post a poem that is featured in the story I'm writing. It's about a different, rather foreign theme for a change: L_O_V_E
I hope Yuh guys dig it:)

M_A_G_N_I_F_Y_I_N_G__G_L_A_S_S

You see pass my flaws;

Pass my insecurities.

You see pass the rumors;

Pass the hatred spread stories.

You see pass all of my issues;

Pass my past.

You see pass what they read in the news;

Pass the magnifying glass.

You see pass my wall of resistance;

Pass my headstrong persona.

You see pass my persistence;

Pass my emotional trauma.

You see pass the bleak contrast;

Pass the negativity.

You see pass the magnifying glass;

You see me.

-Saara

S E A R C H_f o r_M E A N I N G

Hey Guys I dug this poem up in my documents and I hope yuh like it :)

S E A R C H_f o r_M E A N I N G

Raindrops are like tears;

Seconds feel like years.

A poke feels like a stab;

Self-control seems impossible to grab.

Love seems like hate;

A lifetime feels like a long wait.

Death seems more like life;

A feather feels like a knife.

My soul is like a dark, silent, bottomless pit;

Waiting for some light to be lit.

My heart is a rock, sinking to the bottom of my soul;

Hidden at the bottom, nestled into a dark hole.

On this journey through suffer and strife;

I still continue to find my meaning in life.

By: Saara Mowlana

J A R_O F_W H I S P E R S

Heeey! :) YAY !! :DD finally apoem with the Blog's name :DD WHOOP WHOOP! haha yeah, anywhoo I hope you guys like it! peAces :D

J A R_O F_W H I S P E R S

Enclosed by my own desires;
Misled by my own heart and soul- those LIARS!
Talked down upon by my own mind;
All my hopes plastered onto a mental shrind.
Deceived by my own conscience;
Unprotected by my broken wall of defense.
Unloved by my own will;
Moving when I'm standing still.
No more Rainbows and Colour Palets;
Just emotionless robots of regrets.
No more Joy, Laughter or Love;
Just grey clouds shining down from above.
No more innocence in the once starlit eyes;
Just empty, cold, careless lies.
No identities- just Misses and Misters;
So I fill up a Jar Of Whispers.
I throw in some hopes and dreams;
A little bit of love that's only a little torn at the seams.
I seal it with a good-night kiss;
Alas, shall I dare to open this?

-Saara_Mowlana

S W E E T | I G N O R A N C E

Hey! so I want to also post this poem and I hope you guys like it! :D (p.s thanks to my friend: NIXII NOTTA for contributing :D ILY, check out her blog I'm On The Edge Of Glory here)

S W E E T | I G N O R A N C E

Sparkles woven into my soul, dares not to brighten it;
Innocent eyes;
And sequined lies.
All that's left is no fun, but ignorant hearts not fully equip.
Plastic smiles that stay in place;
'Do not deny;
The sweet smelling lie.'
And no love lies there to trace.
Out of my mind, my sanity- what sanity?
They infect our brain;
And drive us insane.
No room for clarity.
Somber I roam around the empty streets of my heart;
Pitch black dark;
No light spark.
No difference between the end and start.

-Saara Mowlana

L A V E N D E R | L O V E

Hey Guys, it's been a while so I thought that I should update you with a new poem :DD (YAY!!:D) haha anyway I hope you guys like it! (I also want to say if any of you don't know who Christina Grimmie is- you HAVE to check her out she RAWWKs! here's a link)

L A V E N D E R | L O V E

Lavender Love that is so cruel;
Drowns my soul and takes me fool.
Crystal hearts shatter fast;
Lavender Love never lasts.

Plastic laughs and Plastic tears;
Plastic hopes and Plastic fears.
Rubber lies and Rubber fables;
Burn against the roads of my conscience that I cradle.

Evil souls and Evil foes;
Pretend to be as pretty as pink bows.
Sweet acid turns them black;
And yet they still come back.

Starlit hate and Sparkling anger;
Stir inside of me- a familiar stranger.
Lavender Love, oh why are you so cruel?
But never again shall you take me fool.

-Saara Mowlana

V I V I D _ M E M O R I E S

Hey guys, so it's been a while since my last post and I decided to put up this reeeeaaally oold poem from way back in 2009 and it was inspired, so to say, by Rihanna's song 'Russian Roulette' and although none of this in the poem happened to me I just felt for all those women it has happened to and I have a... well "over-active" imagination rofl! Anyway I hope you guys like it:)

V I V I D _ M E M O R I E S

You can see my heart beating right through my chest;
This pain is too hard to digest.
The thoughts of what you did to me;
Still a vivid and alive memory.
Every last bruise and sore;
Just got more and more.
Painful memories that become nightmares;
Haunting me with lively scares.
The scars deep within my soul;
My heart with a big punched hole.
The restless nights and dreadful days;
Praying to God to please take this pain away.
You handed me the gun and said;
"Pull the trigger, then your problems and I will be dead."
Even after everything I couldn't do it;
You took the gun back and said "All it takes is one bullet."
You pointed it at me and you were ready to shoot me;
But before you could another gun sounded loudly.
You were silent as a drop of blood left the corner of your mouth;
You dropped the gun and fell down south.
I looked around terrified and afraid;
I saw a policeman standing next to where you laid.
With a gun in his hand; He called for an ambulance van.
You can see my heart beating right through my chest;
This pain is too hard to digest.
-Saara